In essence I have been fired.
Here is what happened:
I was brought in again to talk with my supervisors. The main discussion was my request to terminate early from the job at the end of January. Their issue was that they could not find a good teacher for the company at that time, due to many reasons...such as no teacher wants to work in their location..etc. They said that for them it gives the school a really bad situation at that time.
So they are going to start looking for a new teacher starting next month.
Also came upon this were that I received yet again more parent complaints. These complaints are: I did not make copies of the pages for students who did not have the book and things like that.
Supervisor: "I am disappointed and depressed."
Instead of having a fit and crying this time, I went about this conversation sanely. I kept my head up and tried to listen to their side. While at the same time I resigned within myself and realized that things are just not working, no matter what I try.
This is because I did try to improve myself, my attitude and my work habits. But I made (in my opinion) tiny mistakes, that however have a big affect on the school due to the nature of the business. During our discussion I did tell them that I have seen my own achievements at the school, however they moved past it and pointed out all the wrong.
Your little foreigner here may become repatriated back in America. I am not saying I am giving up and going back to the states. I have a passion here, one to be with BK and two ...to find my purpose here. And of course to do a job well done.
I have come to the understanding that me and this school do not mix. I am really hurt that although I feel I work hard I am criticized for so many things.
I am sorry for all of those out there that are eager to come here and rely on the stories of us expat bloggers. I don't mean to paint an ugly picture of the people or the jobs here. This is my experience and could be similar to many others out here. I made the choice to work at this private school. Now I must face my next choices.
What could be next?
There are of course many options now. But realize my conditions... I will be given 30 day notice when they find someone. That means I could be on the street (I would stay at BK's) in Nov, Dec or Jan. So that leaves me with less time now to find a proper job. Either way here is the outlook:
- Move to another Hagwon... can choose specific area of Seoul due to that there are a plethora of them. (negative = another hagwon)
- Find a public school that is hiring...preferably in Seoul
- Figure out how and get a visa extension that would last till Feb ... so to have more time and get what I wanted in the first place: public school job near BK...or just nice place.
- Last resort: buy a plane ticket home. I would in the meantime reapply for a public school job and fly back in January...start in February.
Except for the last one... it isn't hard to go home and find a job from there, get the paperwork, and get flown out.
Of course I don't know exactly what I will do. All of the choices are dependent on getting my documents in order, which takes some time.
I know though that I feel this is now what I have to do, that I will face the possibility of anything.
My only hope is that BK and I don't lose each other in this mess. He is busy with applying for jobs which requires his full attention. I don't blame him for having to be distracted with his own future plans. I will find a way to survive and I know he is there for me in certain ways.
I must keep positive.
I must see this an opportunity for the better.
I hope I haven't failed any of you~
~I think I need to sleep.